Mysteries

Floating, swimming into the unknown waters. Smiles or tears? I do not know but I shall face my fears. The water feels warm at first then gets chilly, I feel ice spikes poking me yet not cutting me. I thought I was the one testing the waters, it seems the waters are testing me. The waters start pushing me forward then suddenly starts pushing me backward very slowly, I'm confused... Did I pass the test? Or is this a sign of a lost fight? I cannot seem to find the answers, the waters refuse to reveal its intentions, motives and its depth. I cannot see how deep it is because im left floating on the surface, the waters leave me clueless. With all this silent and secret struggle between I and the waters, I still feel a sense of yearning, curiousity and affection coming from the waters as its slow waves push me to the surface... As much as I try to dive deep, I still end up floating on the surface. I stare into the sky, the air feels safe and accomodating, it feels better to float in the air than in the waters... The air is transparent and calm, I do not need to struggle with air, I feel free... But as easy as it maybe to float in the air, I choose to stay in the waters... I choose to fight and uncover the mysteries that lie within the depth of the waters...